Because / Note to a Lover

I had to do it.

everything went accordingly.

When I was recruited

The look on her face was disbelief.

But it is eat or be eaten, and I had to eat.

I can’t promise you anything. 

My time is limited.

And you can negate those last words I spoke to you,

what I mean to say is, I didn’t mean them.

I can barely do bad by myself,

and you want me to do bad for the both of us.

I’m pretty sure I’m going the wrong way, and I don’t wana fuck up

worse than I already have.

You asked me why I left, and I asked you why you stayed.

Then nothing.

 And nothing still.


save me a spot in line nonetheless.